Vacation

or is it when you have small kids?  Let alone small kids with health issues ?  For me, it's not.  You're constantly having to watch them and make sure they don't hurt themselves and you have to take away your time to be with them. 

However, in saying that, for me that's a good thing (other than my back).  I work so much and have a long commute it feels like I never get to see them.  So this vacation coming up, I'm taking advantage of being able to hang with my kids.

It was a real wake up call to hear the stuff about my son in their testing and observations.   My eldest is vocal and my youngest is pretty good playing with herself.  My middle one I'm now looking back and seeing some of the stuff he does is for attention.  So my son may not realize it, he's going to get it this vacation.

However, I am taking a bit of a break in the mornings so I can finish up my projects.  I have to finish my youngest daughter's story and now start my sons.  But this is the time that I need to get this done.  I've been putting it off for awhile being very busy.  But that's part of what this and my other blog is about.  Help me get back into writing so I can finish the story.

I never knew growing up that I would have these types of kids.  The closest things we had was my cousin who had Cystic Fibrosis.  Most everyone else was healthy.  But I was in college and education major and when I was working, I was always drawn to those with disabilities.  I remember working in a video store and there was this boy in a wheelchair who had a talking board.  So he loved talking to me using his board.  Or should I say telling jokes.  His Mom thanked me for being so nice to her son.  She told me not everyone was and it broke her heart.  At that time, I could only empathize with her.  To me it was sad that people could be that way ..especially with kids.

Now here I am, much older and 3 special kids of my own.  I teach my eldest to be open about her condition.  I mean she has a scar.  We use the story of that she has a special heart and had to get it fixed.  I worry about her though.  She's so out going and so kind that I feel like she's going to be taken advantage of or just hurt because people don't take the time to get to know her.

I am very hopeful there will be some kids her age where we're going and that she'll have at least one that will get her and be her friend.  That's all I can wish for my kids.